Tuesday, November 2, 2010

change of the guard

tonight i'm in a hotel room, waiting to get sworn into the bar. i can no longer say i'm gonna be a lawyer when i grow up; i'm gonna be one tomorrow. that's deep enough. compounding matters significantly is the fact that this ceremony happens in a place that is thoroughly chocked to the gills with memories of the old life.

so how do i handle this? simple: by replacing bad thoughts with good ones. i drive the streets with a new companion, writing a new future over the old, dead past. it's largely successful so far, except for the weird gnawing sensation that i am nothing more than jimmy stewart in "vertigo," dressing the new love up to look like the old one.

my rational mind knows that this too shall pass, that the old life holds no dominion over any geographic location, that tomorrow will be one of the proudest moments of my life. but the man by my side will be different. there's a new sheriff in town. it'll take just a little more time, it seems, to fully grasp what that means.


  1. Take a deep breath and enjoy it! Congrats!

  2. All that you need to worry about for the time being, sweetie... is your being sworn into the bar...

    I am SO proud of you!!! :oD


  3. This is so exciting! It will feel so great to be sworn in, after the years of hard work you've put in!

  4. I've sworn in many bars. Countless bars, in fact. Congrats, all the hard work is paying off.

  5. Congratulations, hon, and just enjoy the day. You've worked too hard to let anything spoil it. Hugs to you and the man. ;)

  6. CONGRATS! This is huge. Proud of you, take the leap!


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