Thursday, April 8, 2010

down dog

the intensive 30-day yoga program is on. today will be day 4, and despite a persistent mild lower-back strain from still not being able to bring my legs out of a shoulder stand in any type of controlled manner, i am feeling pretty freaking awesome. the scale's a little lower, yes, but my mind is very clear, and that's the real benefit of all of this.

i'm not super-enthused about the spiritual aspects of yoga. i don't really like chanting "om," or talking about being in a space of god, or all that. my feelings on the sky-daddy thing are well documented. but leaving all that aside, there is something really mentally freeing about a 75-minute yoga class. i don't know if it's psychosomatic or real, but i have my theories. mainly, i think it's that yoga forces me to devote every ounce of mental and physical energy to the practice. check my balance, check my breathing, etc. i need to be dragged kicking and screaming out of my own head every once in awhile, and bridge pose makes that possible.

i've started reading hannah, just breathe... more regularly, and she does a fantastic job of encapsulating this sort of thing. better living through yoga and all that. i've started and stopped with yoga probably 10 times in the last decade. it's finally starting to click with me what the point is. that'll keep me coming back for sure now.

and hell - it's almost swimsuit season, right? :)

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

oh, and one more thing

re: yesterday's rant, i think coach mora said this best.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

the shadow knows...

ha. haha. hahahaha...

someone out there in internet-land thinks they know better than i do what's going on in my life. that's freaking hilarious.

i refer you all, once again, to the CAVEAT EMPTOR in the sidebar.

and for those of you who think you're "sorry to be the bearer of bad news but this has gone on too long and it's not right or fair for her to do this to you":

gossip is funny. but you crossed the line. BIG TIME. i may not ever find out who you are, but i pity you. couldn't even do it under your real name, either.

i know some of you think that life is just this big soap opera. here's a lesson: it's not. adults sometimes write fiction. other adults know about this. children can't separate fantasy from reality. adults can. why don't those out there who can't either grow up and trust people to handle their business, or if you can't, go elsewhere for internet entertainment?

and for those of you who can separate fantasy from reality, stay tuned. we're gonna have some fun. :)

Monday, April 5, 2010

and some procrastination

because i just can't go whole-hog into spartan mode, here's a little fruitless side distraction. thanks to the daily dose of reality for the questionnaire:

What's wrong with fake breasts?
eh, nothing really, i guess. it's less the things themselves and more what they say (i.e., i don't feel good enough as i am, i'm conforming to someone else's standards of beauty, etc.). not to mention that if they're not done well, they just look awkward and uncomfortable.

List your latest run-in with the Carnival of Idiocy.
i road-raged all the way down I-10 east yesterday, from columbus, TX back here. it was just a parade of goofballs.

Name one thing you'd like to tell your ten year ago self.
don't do it. just don't do it. you're not thinking about what's good for you; you're crafting an identity that you think other people want you to have. don't lose the next few years over this...

What's your favorite word that's not in the dictionary?
ooh, that's a good one. dumb-ass-ery, i think.

Why do fools fall in love?
because love is a foolish thing. it makes no sense.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

crunch time

and so it begins. after nearly three years of struggle, tumult, crisis and triumph, law school is just about over. today, my head goes down and i start the work of exam prep. i also start a thirty-day yoga regimen; one class every single day, without fail. it's funny to think this way on the christian easter sunday. everyone else ends their period of work and reflection today with a celebration, an indulgence, and a rebirth. i, however, go underground for this time every year. this year, i really want to dazzle everyone with the results of the next month. i've got a LOT riding on the outcome. i've got so much to look forward to, and i really need to make sure i'm in the proper frame of mind (and in the right physical shape) to embrace the future properly. the goal of exam time, which is actually really nice, is to tamp down all the stress and drama of my emotional life to live exclusively in the intellectual realm for awhile. i think that's why i like exam period so much. either that, or i'm insane.

so hopefully it doesn't get too boring around here over the next month. i'll do my best to make outlining and down-dog sound fun. :)