Thursday, August 26, 2010


i don't wait well. it's a weakness of mine; if something important is coming up, i am on freaking tenterhooks until it happens. case in point: i am currently waiting for my student loan disbursement. five business days is INTERMINABLE when you have a ton of things to buy. i'm antsy as hell waiting for the direct deposit to show up.

but this impatience pales in comparison with the waiting game i have to play now. i wonder if this is how people in jail feel as their sentences wind down. i am so. damn. close. to having absolutely everything i have ever wanted in this life. there's just the matter of having to snip those last few threads of entanglement before i can get totally free. i have no choice in the matter, either; there's just no way to advance the timetable.

all i can do is think about how little time is really left. i've waited this long. i can wait a little longer.


  1. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you that you get absolutely everything you want. You deserve every bit of it.

    I'm a terrible waiter as well so I totally feel your pain.

  2. God, I hate waiting. I think we all do. Fortunately, these things end up being worth the wait, don't you think?

  3. Hmmm... as the sentence winds down? You mean before they are turned loose and set free??

    ... or before they are executed?


    Sorry.. that struck me as funny... :oD

    I trust all is well!!


  4. I feel ya on this one. I'm the most impatient person I know, so waiting is just torture for me.

  5. Over the years I've learned that the key to patience is focusing on something else.

  6. Patience is so hard. It can be anxiety inducing, and the only thing that cures that anxiety is the things that you're anticipating actually happening. Which isn't very helpful. I know I always feel like I can't let myself relax or be happy until absolutely everything falls into place, but I hope you are able to enjoy the big percentage of things that make up 'almost everything you want' until the last piece falls into place.


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